lateralus

 i dont listen to tool. i think people try way too hard to be "nonchalant." if you arent familiar with it, it bascically means being really distant and caring too much about stuff, and thats perceived as cool and attractive. i dont klnow, i find it really lame when people try way too hard. why arent people chalant. facusing too much on the respect of others just means you lack respect for yourself and i find that extremely upsetting.............

Yatile

 I’ll be honest here, I don’t think I’ll be in a relationship anytime soon. It’s weird, I like the idea of a relationship but I’m scared to be in one. I don’t get people on a regular basis, let alone being in a relationship. And excuse me if this sounds really pretentious but I don’t think I’ll be in a relationship anytime soon. Idk what it is. I try to be nice and respectful but it’s so difficult there’s so much stuff I don’t understand. I’m friends with a lot of people, girls included but it’s nothing serious. Honestly I would just someone to talk to about stuff yk. Music and life and random stuff like why does cranberry juice exist. It’s a bit frustrating because when I try to talk about this, my friends say I’m acting like a “pick Me” but I’m really not trying to. I feel incredibly lonely because I barely have someone to talk to and most of my friends are in relationships. I don’t know, I’ll figure something out. Right now I’m happy with myself but I’m really starting to think I won’t have someone ever. 

tylaneo

 

@powell9768

9 years ago (edited)

The bottom line from my perspective is that anytime an artist drops something unique that challenges us to open our minds many would rather hate than accept the challenge. I'm 46 and have been listening to hip hop since sugar hill gang. Even today, Yonkers(Tyler), Sweatpants(Childish Gambino), You see me(C. Gambino), and other songs from the likes of school boy Q, Kendrick Lamar, Problem, Iamsu, etc. Are some of my favorites. I coukd careless about their religious beliefs or sexual orientation. When I wish to discuss religion, I go to church. You wanna talk sexual orientation, see a therapist. When you want music you go to the radio. Feel me. Too many people waste time judging others.

i found this comment in a youtube section for the song trouble on my mind byu pusha T and tyler the creator, and it perfectly captures my point of view and music and stuff in general. that last sentence is my mantra.

1tonfun

the brain is a weird fascinating tool. we are the universe living through ourselves and our hyper awareness has lead to greatlengths iun discovering our world. its aweosme. but i dont know my brain is something else. for starters, i hear music no matter what in my head. no matter what situation im in, unlkess iim sleeping, im hearing music and it gets so fucking annoying sometimes. i coujld also see colours and shapes since i was a little kid when listening to music or really hearing any sound, which im told is something called synesthesia, ehich is cool but i did more research online and i dont even knoe if i have it. i dont care though i know what i see and its cool. one thing that really weirds me out is my dreams. many people around me tell me they dont dream and i can't even imagine that. my dreams are so weird and vivid its like im living on another planet, kind of like that one scene of dwight in The Office with second life. its like another world and ive dreamed of dreaming of dreaming before when i was sick and i got up and puked 2 times after that. 

my most recent dream, last night, was definetly one i wont forget. ive been having this reaccuring factor in my dream where its a pale face without a nose squished between 2 chairs, amd then it quickly disappears and reappears, only this time as a middle aged asian lady without cheeks on her face and i text across her head saying "the herculean efforts have been shunned" its weird and i feel like i cant tell anyone because they wont believe me. the recent dream i had was me but i wasnt me, my brother, who didnt look like my brother at all and my "mom", who was actually my sister in my dream, who bared a close resemblance to fiona in shameless, even though ive never watched it. in the dream i was watching a video with my "brother" when a screen pops up, like an add, with a grueling sharp sound playing, with a flashing text which was a poem. it read 

"the one eyed man disparages his efforts

the everlasting huntress eyes

prey on the divine beings seeking

 

eternal glory

the nirvana man has onc

e searched for is now

a barren wasteland

populated only by gay horse men"

that was the poem and it was really weird. i dont remeber the title it said but i remeber it said something like "the nocturnal turns off beings" and i was so confused waking up and remebering that. after that was in my dream, my "brother" runs off crying while i stay watching the video, which was the reaccuring pale face/asian lady video, and 2 minutes later the pilice are at my door, asking to see "the boy". my "sister" then grabs me and im taken by thr police as an "enemy of the human race" and theres a weird storm with very dark green clouds speaking to me but its in another language. the police tell me ive accesed something that should have never been found and im exacuted via firing squad from 5 police officers, while my "sister" watches, my "brother" crying, the storm talking, and this mantra of "we've been told to turn our faces from him" repeats.

mind you, i get these dream everyday. i just decided to write about the one, but they usually follow the same pattern

i might need to see a doctor

 

erckle

i made a beat for a friend today and its pretty awesome. i might post it honestly. i have to study for finals but once im done it'll be posted on soundcloud and HOPEFULLY FOR THE LIFE OF ME it wont be copyrighted.

rsircle.

 im honestly debating deleting all my socials if imbeing honest. and i mean the apps not my profiles. social media is toxic. i hate it. everytime i find a funny or interesting video, im met with a video of someone with the most idiotic opinion on the planet. its also incredibly addictive, i find myself opening tiktok/insta everytime i wake up. its an awful habit. the worst of them is snpachta. ive talked about why i hate snapchat and im honestly considering deleting it. if im really someones friend, i would have their number. simple as that.

asynide

 i dont know or understand a lot of things, but one of the things i actively try to learn about because i know nothing about it is social conventions. like what the fuck are social cues and why am i expected to learn them. it confuses me. as well as relationships. not even romantic ones, i mean like friends and stuff. everyday people tell me they dont talk to someone because they're fake. im so confused because why is everyone so fake and why can no one communicate well. even if they do, the person they communicate it to is usually so self-deluded they dont even feel like they have any flaws. its so dumb this shit is so fucking stupid. 

ses

 i wont be posting on the blog for a while, only because i have exams coming up and i need to focus, so no post for a while. hopefully when im done i can finqlly put out some music. we'll see

ente

 just rewatched the movie whiplash and its absolutely incredfible. top tier film making in my opinion. 

spoiler alert

one thing i would suggest is the scene where fletcher is talking to Neimen at the beginning, where he talks to him about being great and everything. i personally think there should have been a shot at the chair where "Elmer Fudd" was sitting, as a sort of foreshadowing of the lengths he'll get pushed to, to achieve this level of "greatness" like Charlie parker. i dont know, im not a dirctor but just an idea. i really recommend everyone watch this movie it is excellent.