1tonfun

the brain is a weird fascinating tool. we are the universe living through ourselves and our hyper awareness has lead to greatlengths iun discovering our world. its aweosme. but i dont know my brain is something else. for starters, i hear music no matter what in my head. no matter what situation im in, unlkess iim sleeping, im hearing music and it gets so fucking annoying sometimes. i coujld also see colours and shapes since i was a little kid when listening to music or really hearing any sound, which im told is something called synesthesia, ehich is cool but i did more research online and i dont even knoe if i have it. i dont care though i know what i see and its cool. one thing that really weirds me out is my dreams. many people around me tell me they dont dream and i can't even imagine that. my dreams are so weird and vivid its like im living on another planet, kind of like that one scene of dwight in The Office with second life. its like another world and ive dreamed of dreaming of dreaming before when i was sick and i got up and puked 2 times after that. 

my most recent dream, last night, was definetly one i wont forget. ive been having this reaccuring factor in my dream where its a pale face without a nose squished between 2 chairs, amd then it quickly disappears and reappears, only this time as a middle aged asian lady without cheeks on her face and i text across her head saying "the herculean efforts have been shunned" its weird and i feel like i cant tell anyone because they wont believe me. the recent dream i had was me but i wasnt me, my brother, who didnt look like my brother at all and my "mom", who was actually my sister in my dream, who bared a close resemblance to fiona in shameless, even though ive never watched it. in the dream i was watching a video with my "brother" when a screen pops up, like an add, with a grueling sharp sound playing, with a flashing text which was a poem. it read 

"the one eyed man disparages his efforts

the everlasting huntress eyes

prey on the divine beings seeking

 

eternal glory

the nirvana man has onc

e searched for is now

a barren wasteland

populated only by gay horse men"

that was the poem and it was really weird. i dont remeber the title it said but i remeber it said something like "the nocturnal turns off beings" and i was so confused waking up and remebering that. after that was in my dream, my "brother" runs off crying while i stay watching the video, which was the reaccuring pale face/asian lady video, and 2 minutes later the pilice are at my door, asking to see "the boy". my "sister" then grabs me and im taken by thr police as an "enemy of the human race" and theres a weird storm with very dark green clouds speaking to me but its in another language. the police tell me ive accesed something that should have never been found and im exacuted via firing squad from 5 police officers, while my "sister" watches, my "brother" crying, the storm talking, and this mantra of "we've been told to turn our faces from him" repeats.

mind you, i get these dream everyday. i just decided to write about the one, but they usually follow the same pattern

i might need to see a doctor