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 im almost done my 11th grade year and i cant help but feel bittersweet about it. it was aweosme. so many fun times with friends in class and out of school. met some cool people. made music and listened to a lot of new stuff. but theres also the crushing realization that im not going to be a kid forever. as i approach my 12th grade year, i really wonder where did all those times as a kid go, where they are nothing but fleeting memories in my mind, but at one point i probably had the best day ever at 6, something that ill never remember. really makes you realize that we dont have a lot of time. those 10 years since i was 6 really went by in a flash and i really just dont know where im going. i have a feeling that ill probably end up working at a walmart or convience store or something like that, homeless, or dead. i dont think theres an inbetween. i hope , the bare minimum, to work a good job and i can enjoy my time on earth before its gone. my dreams are to make it with my music and art. i dont know why 1 year feels like forver but in 10 years that 1 year will be nothing but a memory that i will remember for a split second, getting hit with the same feeling i have now thinking of my childhood.