ilop

 all my life, ive been "the weird kid." when i was younger, my classmates used to make fun of me for being weird and unathletic. my teachers told me i "thought differently" then other kids and i would get called a robot by some people. my mom always said i have a weird brain and i should go to a doctor to fix it. even now as im older, im still getting called weird and my mom still says the same things. it just got me thinking, why does it matter? can i not just be a fucking human? why do i have to change who i am to fit your expectations of me and why is it so much of a struggle to realize that this is who am i and i cant and wont change. people are weird and i dont like them. i like some people who i consider my friends and family but in general  people are weird and confuse me. i wish i could run away and live in a forest, or move to somewhere like italy and live in the country side with my own farm and house and i would be a 15 bike ride to a local town where i can buy food and hang around, while also pursuing music. thats the dream. i hope i make there someday. fuck everyone. b yourself........................